Shade Of Grey

Open eyes
Roll out of bed again
And go through the motions
Awake and unconscious.
Look in the mirror
There i am again
Feeling so empty
The greyest shade of sick.
Sometimes my eyes deceive
I try not to blink
I think i see the beauty again
Has it returned?
Then it's gone; the moment's lost
Sinking all over again
This false sense of hope is far too much.
I can only run so far before i tire and fall
Falling again and again i stay down.
I wish i was someone
I wish i was something
I wish they could see me again
I was trying too hard

Fall apart, like so many broken hearts
Infect my mind, like so many left behind
Cross my heart, as i hope to die
Twisting the knife so slowly
As i crawl away again

I want to be no one
I want to be nothing
I want to be invisible
Until my tears have dried

Fall apart, like so many broken hearts
Infect my mind, like so many left behind
Cross my heart, as i hope to die
Twisting the knife so slowly
As i crawl away again

Crawl away...into one more day
Just another shade of grey