St. Judas Saganaw

Was it laughing or crying?
I heard the through wall
In that shitty hotel in Saganaw
I've been busy, not sleeping, drunk again
And unprepared to wash up on your borderland

I am on my knees Saint Judas
Will you remember Me?
I've been lost cause since 17
Did it mean nobody's home
But here we are

Was it laughing or crying that came from your mouth
As you slam that heavy door as you cast me out?
Long is in the desert
That curse of doubt has mango that awful holy sound

I am on my knees Saint Judas
Will you remember me?
I've been lost cause since 17
Did it mean nobody's home
But here we are

I am on my knees Saint Judas
Will you remember Me?
I've been lost cause since 17
Did it mean nobody's home
But here we are

Is it laughing or crying?
You when you die
Like some festive occasion gone arise
In that cigarette carpet
I felt in my guts
The pain of some ancient elemental love

I am on my knees Saint Judas
Will you remember Me?
I've been lost cause since 17
Did it mean nobody's home
But here we are