In Denial

stretching out for unknown
forbidding all drops to flow
didn't dare stay or be,
eyes shut: delusion's on screen
highlights have dimmed and died
for the sake of some stupid pride
limbless dancer dancin' slow,
in own arms all alone singing:

"it wasn't me, it wasn't me,
i did not ruin my life
those days are just behind,
another comes, other goes
i can curse, i can make a wish,
mess my brain but still i miss
those days are just behind,
but i did not ruin my life"

taste of ginger and cinnamon,
celebration and christmas song
flipside of insomniac's dream
gives a hope pain hasn't been
in somewhere out there,
as the virgin snow's floating down
callin' back from dreamland's ground
frosty dawn and all alone

"it wasn't me, it wasn't me,
i did not ruin my life
those days are just behind,
another comes, other goes
i can curse, i can make a wish,
mess my brain but still i miss
those days are just behind,
but i did not ruin my life"

highlights have dimmed and died
for the sake of some stupid pride
limbless dancer dancin' slow,
in own arms all alone
ridiculously carryin' on
without a thing to carry for
learned what have to learn
and nothing will ever return

"it wasn't me, it wasn't me,
i did not ruin my life
those days are just behind,
another comes, other goes
i can curse, i can make a wish,
mess my brain but still i miss
those days are just behind,
but i did not ruin my life
i can pray i can make a wish,
shoot my brain but still i miss
for me it's time to hide,
oh my god i ruined my life"