This Present Darkness

A smile on my face
Hides the pain inside
I feign happiness
But wish I would die

I wish I would die
I wish I would die

You can't judge a book by its cover
Because nothing is as it ever seems
I thought I felt true happiness once
But it turned out to be only a dream

Days turn to months and months into years
I live a life full of doubt and fear

I've seen my loved ones come and go
Is this what it's like to be all alone
I've seen my loved ones come and go
Is this what it's like to be all alone

All alone
All alone

This isn't how I wanted to be
As I constantly hurt the ones I love
My prayers still go unanswered
God, I hate the thing that I've become

Days turn to months and months into years
I live a life full of doubt and fear

I can no longer hold this pain
How much more can I take
Crushed beneath the pressure
And I am about to break
God, will You show Your face to me
Or has my devotion been a lie
I'm blinded by my doubts and fears
Oh God, will you open up my eyes

I'm lost in this present darkness
There seems to be no end in sight
But I still crawl along on my knees
Praying for a brief sign of the light