$20 Christmas

don't wanna go home and be unhappy
don't wanna go to where everybody's happy
but if I didn't go I know I would be lying
why should I go back to where everybody's crying

everybody's gonna see
everybody's wondering
everybody's gonna bash my $20 Christmas
try to keep your mouth closed
cross your fingers
cross your toes
everybody's gonna bash my $20 Christmas

strip me of my pride
a candle lit dinner
what's the deal?
so I lied
you'll never be a winner
and though I stand alone
I feel you close beside me
but I won't go back home
I know I would be lying
it's not my fault