A Waking Contradiction

Iâ? m sleeping
Iâ? m restless
Iâ? m breathing
And breathless
Iâ? m willing
Unable
Drifting
Unstable
Iâ? m after
And Iâ? m before
A sore loser
And good sport
Iâ? m owned by this feeling like Iâ? m climbing the ceiling

My strength is my weakness!
Iâ? m strong enough to see this!

My moods swing
I daydream
Iâ? m selective
But Iâ? m listening
I seem
To be
Cold, turned-off completely
My actions deceiving
My insides how Iâ? m feeling

Force me out
Just let me be
I need you now
You donâ? t need me
I am confused
Your symmetry
One day
Iâ? ll
Find
Why
Youâ? d
Need
Mine

Iâ? m sleeping
Iâ? m restless
Iâ? m careful
But reckless
Complacent
Conceited
Divided
Defeated
Iâ? m blue skies
And hail storm
A warm invite
And a get-gone
I own my ambitions
But lost all my convictions

My strength is my weakness!
Iâ? m strong enough to see this!

My moods swing
I daydream
Iâ? m selective
But Iâ? m listening
I seem
To be
Cold, turned-off completely
My actions deceiving
My insides how Iâ? m feeling

Force me out
Just let me be
I need you now
You donâ? t need me
I am confused
Your symmetry
One day
Iâ? ll
Find
Why!
Youâ? d!
Need!
Mine!

Somewhere beneath
This indiscreet behavior
Lies a story to unfold
It scares me most
That I donâ? t know
Where my villains hide
How capable of a lie
And if Iâ? d rather be denied
Mine!

Force me out
Just let me be
I need you now
You donâ? t need me
I am confused
Your symmetry
One day
Iâ? ll
Find