Not Coming Home, Pt. 6

Now where do I go from here?
It's all I ever wanted
Why am I disappointed
In myself?
I never hesitated
But now I'm so frustrated
What if this all was a mistake?

I made it work
I watched it crumble in my hands
I dried the tears and did my best
Oh, how it hurts
To watch it swallow everything
But a fading memory

Something in me
Makes me doubt myself
Every step of this way
I try to heal but it stays

Something in me
Makes me doubt myself
Every step of this way
I try to heal but it stays
The longer I stare
Into the abyss
The clearer I see
The abyss watching me

I made it work
I watched it crumble in my hands
I dried the tears and did my best
Time to move on
And after decades gone
I'm glad to say, I'm finally coming home