Soaked Eyes

I've been wearing soaked eyes for years now
Still I'm pretending my heart is old
Always letting me in halfway
Before the sudden feeling isn't for you
But for those who just don't know yet
Maybe we're the ones who don't know
Too blinded by the cynicism
We believe we should be grateful for

And I said I wouldn't break again
Now I spit on what is left
And I wonder did I create my own heartbreaks
By expecting too much
You're the look of a soul so broken
It will do anything
Just to make someone other feel
More broken than yourself

I want to see you again
And I don't want to see you again
But I'm afraid I won't ever see anyone else
Though I'll be all that's you
I can hate you in front of everyone
But in silence I'm still tied by you
In silence I still feel the same
In silence I despise myself

I wonder where somewhere else is now
Behind whose ribs it might be
In you there's need of being needing
'Cause you never had yourself