note to self

You started life as double lines
Nobody planned for
Wiped all your mother's tears
Growing up too fast
And all along you played a role
You never asked for
Feeling everybody's fears
But what choice did you have

Your parents were fighting
Your younger brothers were crying
And you were soldiering, hiding
In your bedroom, trying
To keep it locked up inside
And you just ignored all the sirens
If I could could go back in time
I'd try to write it all out

Note to self
I know you had to get us through some hell
You couldn't put a name to what you felt
'Cause you'd never hurt like that before
But you ain't alone anymore no
I got you now
I got you now

Losing love and all your friends
And a little bit of innocence
No one asked you anything
Just made you feel guilty
So you tried to keep between the lines
From the backseat of your life
Couldn't control anything but the size of your jeans

Even the praying and preaching
It couldn't fight off the demons
And you were silently screaming
Somebody listen to me
You didn't know what you needed
You wouldn't show any weakness
If there was a way you could read it girl I'd tell you now

Note to self
I know you had to get us through some hell
You couldn't put a name to what you felt
'Cause you'd never hurt like that before
But you ain't alone anymore no

And all of the screams that just stayed in your head
All of the questions that scared you to death
It was a prison, and you got us out
You can let go, girl, you can break down
'Cause I got you now
Yeah, I got you now, oh
I got you now

Praying and preaching
It couldn't fight off the demons
Somebody listen to me
I got you now

Note to self
Just know that it's okay to ask for help
You don't gotta be afraid 'cause
I can tell you
Life and people let you down
But where I'm standing here and now
It all works out