I'm Not Okay

You say time heals
But I don't feel a damn thing change
I'm stuck on that hospital floor
Still screaming your name
People keep talkin' like
They know what I need
But all their comfort
Feels like gasoline on me

Don't tell me to breathe, don't say: Let it go
You don't know the storm I hold
I'm not okay, and I don't wanna be
I want the world to bleed like me
You left a hole that light won't fill
I'm angry, raw, and burning still

They say you're in a better place
Yeah? Then drag me there too
'Cause this place is just ashes
And I'm choking on the truth
I smile for the crowd
But inside I'm a bomb
Tickin', tickin'
Ready to go off

Don't tell me to breathe, don't say: Let it go
You don't know the storm I hold
I'm not okay, and I don't wanna be
I want the world to bleed like me
You left a hole that light won't fill
I'm angry, raw, and burning still

You were my anchor, my voice, my ground
Now I'm just noise without a sound
I curse the sky, I curse the day
That took you, and walked away

So don't try to fix me, don't fake a prayer
I don't need hope, I need you here
I'm not okay, and I won't pretend
This rage is the only thing that understands
You left a hole, a goddamn scar
And I'm still screaming where you are

You're gone
And I'm still here
And I hate it
I hate it so much