Living in Reverse

I don't know where I left my mind
I don't know when it got so sad
Why am I so afraid to live?
Am I always gonna feel volatile?
For a while, I left it behind
Swallowed clouds, didn't pay much mind
Thought it was just a phase, but the seasons never changed
And I cried

My best friend's a dog
I'm scared, she's getting older
Can't end up alone
With my sarcastic soul
And I know you're here for me
Wish I could drop the irony

Oh I can't stand the feeling please tell me why?
It feels like we've been living in reverse
And I'll try again, till I get better
Swear that someday I'll be fine

Guess my mind's found a place to hide
Helps me keep all my thoughts inside
Pretend I'm not running scared
Like I didn't wish I could, fade
(Called my name but it won't reply)
I never knew how to say goodbye
Or why your arms always felt like knives
In the end when we die
At least we could say we tried

Can't stand the feeling please tell me why?
Does it feels like we've been living in reverse
And I'll try again, till I get better
Swear that someday I'll be fine
You're in the sky, beneath my feet
Finally your own
You're a Chimera, whole and free
It's time for you to leave
Know I'll come back, I'll come back to you

It feels like we've been living in reverse
And I'll try again, till I get better
Swear that I will find what's laying under
I keep living in reverse
Why does it feel like we've been living in reverse
I'll try again, till I get better
Swear that someday I'll be fine