Role Of a Lifetime

Everything's an act
When you're pleasing everyone
And he assumes that role
To such renown
He plays a perfect part
Straight from his heart
Knowing the risk he takes
And hoping that the house
Is not brought down

The role of a lifetime is living a fantasy
The trauma that you struggle to erase
Thoughts battle words over deeds
A war with such casualties
All played out behind a smiling face

God I need your guidance
Tell me what it means
To live a life where nothings as it seems
Spending days in silent fear
And spending nights in lonely prayer
Hoping that one day when you wake
Those feelings won't be there

So confused because I feel complete with him
When we're alone it all somehow makes sense
Look into his eyes for some compromise
Remember the word: Forget
And try to bury something so intense

You learn to play the straight man
Your lines become routine
Never really saying what you mean
But I know the scene will change
White picket fences, and a dog
A trophy bride and children
God I know that's what he wants

But Jason what role do I play
Am I a savior or a phase?
Am I here to damn you?
Or to help you navigate this maze
Where confusion is a crime
So you fill your life with sound
And if you dance like hell
You hope you never touch the ground

What happens when the music stops?
In the silence will he stay
One day you'll realize that these feelings aren't going away
So we drive ourselves insane
Spinning circles in our souls
As we dance around and play pretend
Then once again
Reprise our roles