Looking Back

I was young and dumb
Thought I had it all
Now live my days numb
Waiting for the fall
Now through all the pain
How was I so blind?
What was there to gain?
I was left behind

Looking back, I won't lie
Hate that I craved the high
Now all I do is cry, sit, and think I might die
Oh, I should have known

You put me through Hell
So much wasted time
You watched as I fell
How far is the climb?
You preyed on my heart
Wanted to feel seen
Then it fell apart
How could you be so mean?

Looking back, I would run
Thought I had found the one
Was it all in good fun?
Now I run toward the Sun
Oh, I should've known

You were no where to be found
When it turned to rust
Someday, I'll get off the ground
While your life fades to dust

Looking back, I will weep
For all the hearts you keep
As I fell in too deep with all the souls you reap
Oh, I should've known