A Long Goodbye

A long goodbye, a long goodbye
I'm out of focus now in the corner of your eye
Boxed up inside
Taped over and sealed tight
But I haven't left your room
Maybe I'm on your mind

I know holding on is a struggle
I really understand
But I'm bursting my own bubble
And canceling all my plans

I started leaving shallow tracks
You didn't notice that
I became more and more unimportant
That's at least where my head was at
And small stabs
Turned into big gaps
I couldn't see that they were forming
Was too focused on what I had
No

I reached out for help
Caved back in on myself
Like it wasn't worth it to rely on someone else
Hopefully if I die
It'll be a short hell
And all my friends will go on never knowing how I felt

I know holding on is a struggle
I feel it in my hands
Digging deeper down the tunnel
Right back to where you stand

I started leaving shallow tracks
You didn't notice that
I became more and more unimportant
That's at least where my head was at
And small stabs
Turned into big gaps
I couldn't see that they were forming
Was too focused on what I had