Still, I Love You

I lost you
Don't try to understand
Some loves don't end
They just change the way they hurt

I left without a reason
Not because I didn't care
Some hearts are scared of staying
When love feels almost fair

I was taught to leave in silence
Before joy learns my name
But every street I walked alone
Still whispers you the same

I said goodbye like I was free
But freedom felt like crime
Loving you was easy
Losing you took time

I lost you, don't try to understand
I still love you, more than words allow
Two men against the fear of love
I was brave too late, but honest now

I lost you, but love stayed in my hands
Like a letter I never sent somehow
If loving you was all I knew
Then loving you is still allowed

(Still I love you)
(Still, I do)

Paris feels like your absence
Every café knows my face
I order wine for two
Then drink the empty space

I learned my body wasn't wrong
For wanting something true
Being gay was never the fear
The fear was losing you

I tried to make it make sense
But love won't translate pain
Some endings are just love
Refusing to be tame

I lost you, don't try to understand
I still love you, quietly proud
I chose myself too late, my dear
But loving you, I say it loud

I lost you, but not what we were
Two souls learning how to be seen
If heaven ever felt like truth
It was you loving me

If I had one more sunset
One more chance to stay
I wouldn't ask forgiveness
I'd just say, stay

I lost you, don't try to understand
I still love you, that's the truth
Some loves don't die with distance
They just learn a deeper root

I lost you
(Still I love you)
I lost you
(Still, I do)