Queen Of Spiraling

Driving home from Ellie's house to mine
Forced to be alone with my mind
I've been spending way too much time
Trying to please everybody
Don't know where I rank in their lives

Yeah, it's heavier than it should be
Stuck in between what's happening
And what could be

Feeling inside out
Don't know what to do now
Talking to myself out loud
I'm good at breaking the heart in me
But better at crying until I sleep
I'm the queen
The queen of spiraling

Finding holes in everything I say
Drowning out the sound of reason in my self pity
Feeling like the ballerina from my nightstand
When I was little and the spinning wouldn't stop, yeah
When I grew, yeah, I knew that it would all have to change

And I'm feeling inside out
Don't know what to do now
Talking to myself out loud
I'm good at breaking the heart in me
But better at crying until I sleep
I'm the queen
The queen of spiraling, spiraling, hey

But now it's heavier than it should be
Right now I'm fragile and falling into the deep

And I'm feeling inside out
Don't know what to do now
Don't know what to do now
When I'm talking to myself out loud
I'm good at breaking the heart in me
Better at crying until I sleep

I'm the queen
The queen of spiraling