Sorry From the Start

I carved a canyon in the space between us
Words like daggers thrown in reckless rashness
My pride's a poison, it's choking the light
Left you in shadows, I'm losing the fight
Every mistake's a ghost that I can't outrun
Haunting the wreckage of all that we've done

I'm drowning in the weight of my own regret
Every word I didn't say, every chance I didn't take

I'm sorry for the fire that I let burn us down
For the silence that screamed when you needed sound
My flaws are the chains that I forged in the dark
Now I'm begging for your heart to restart
Oh, my love, I'm breaking, I'm tearing apart
Can you hear me screaming sorry from the start?

Your eyes were a temple, I desecrated the stone
Took you for granted, now I'm cold to the bone
I built these walls with every careless lie
Now I'm trapped inside watching you say goodbye
Your touch was my anchor, but I cut the line
Now I'm adrift in the storm of my own design

I'm drowning in the weight of my own regret
Every word I didn't say, every chance I didn't take

I'm sorry for the fire that I let burn us down
For the silence that screamed when you needed sound
My flaws are the chains that I forged in the dark
Now I'm begging for your heart to restart
Oh, my love, I'm breaking, I'm tearing apart
Can you hear me screaming sorry from the start?

I'd bleed for a moment to take it all back
Rewrite the night where I painted you black
My soul's a mosaic of all my mistakes
Shattered in shards, it's your heart that it breaks
I'm on my knees with this hymn of despair
Praying you'll hear me, though I don't deserve it

I'm the architect of ruin, the thief of your glory
Every scar that I gave you, I'm reaping tenfold
I'm screaming, I'm clawing, I'm tearing my chest
To give you the heart that I swore I'd break less!

I'm sorry for the fire that I let burn us down
For the silence that screamed when you needed sound
My flaws are the chains that I forged in the dark
Now I'm begging for your heart to restart
Oh, my love, I'm breaking, I'm tearing apart
Can you hear me screaming sorry from the start?

If you're gone, I'll carry this weight till I'm dust
A ghost of the lover who betrayed your trust
But if you're still listening through the ashes and pain
I'm sorry, my darling, I'll never break you again