I Give Up

So follow the days
One after the other
Meaningless
It's just normal days
The world around little tells me
The world around affects me little
Waiting for redemption
But it is not easy as it seems
So fast, the days don't make sense
In one the Sun shines brighter
In another rain, it doesn't matter
They are all the same
Just hope that everything goes fast
And do not have to repeat
No reaction, just accepting
No fights to fight
The option is W.O. necessary to avoid fatigue and wear beyond normal
Sure of another defeat
Feeling alive just for that
Please, God, help me!