If You're Watching

I think I've found what I'm looking for -
Behind those eyes an open door -
That vacant stare which I adore -
I'm your slut, and you're my whore -
Spare yourself the aching heart and spare yourself the pain -
Let us just makebleive it's yesterday again -
And mother if you're watching, look away -
And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away ... just look away - I think I found what I'm looking for -
So hit the lights and shut the door -
Listen carefully here's the socore -
I'm your slut, and you're my whore -
Spare yourself the aching heart -
And spare yourself the shame -
Let us just make believe it's yesterday again -
And mother if you're watching, look away -
And mother if you're wondering, but don't know what to say - Mother if you're watching, look away -
It sometimes make me sick inside -
Ashamed of a life that I must hide -
I know you'll never understand -
I'm sorry there's no wedding band -
But deep inside there's still that child -
Innocent in a world gone wild -
Obedient of your moral code -
Scarred by a Christian overload -
But still I live by truth and love -
I still have hopes in the above -
I still have interest in the cross -
But mother if your listening...... shut if off