Magic or Medicine

Sometimes I think I need a doctor
'Cause I've been down
A pill for pain, or maybe something softer
To straighten me out
I'm looking at the peace I'm tryna foster
And I have my doubts
'Cause I tried to find myself, and then I lost her
So now I'm unfound

But I've been working through my feelings
I'm staying calm, tryna regulate my breathing
'Fore it's over, learn composure, start to think before I speak, and
Evaluate the company I'm keeping
And I've been wading through the water
Remember when I talk to myself I'm somebody's daughter
Sister, someone's lover, and so many peoples' friend
Yeah, I've been tryna make amends

'Cause I've been up at night more than I've ever been
And I've been feeling right, but then it's straight back to hell again
I've been putting up a fight
Thought it would get better then
Pretty sure I need a cure
But don't know if it's magic or medicine

Sometimes I think I need religion
I've lost my faith
In everything
I'm looking for some wisdom
So I can find my way
Yeah, I've been feeling insecure
'Cause I've got plenty, but I'm stuck here wanting more
For more
Still looking for more
(Battling my mind) and calling it a war

But I've been working through my feelings
Yeah, I'm staying calm, tryna regulate my breathing
'Fore it's over, learn composure, start to think before I speak, and
Evaluate the company I'm keeping
And I've been wading through the water
Remember when I talk to myself I'm somebody's daughter
Sister, someone's lover, and so many peoples' friend
Yeah, I've been tryna make amends

'Cause I've been up at night more than I've ever been
And I've been feeling right, but then it's straight back to hell again
I've been putting up a fight
Thought it would get better then
Pretty sure I need a cure, but don't know if it's magic or medicine