Afraid To Die

I don't think that I wanna die
I think I'm just scared to be alive
In that moment I realize
I'm terrified

I don't think that I wanna die
But it's been so long since I've cried
And all my feelings have moved to my mind
And they've capsized

Watch how they flow
From my head to my toes and consume me
They race through my veins
Change how I speak and they move me

Have I become my sadness?
Has it become my truth?
When you become your sadness
What do you do?

I say that I'm doing fine
And there's some truth behind the lie
I think the feelings too hard to define
So I'm terrified

Watch how they flow
From my head to my toes and consume me
They race through my veins
Change how I speak and they move me

Have I become my sadness?
Has it become my truth?
When you become your sadness
What do you do?

I really can't do this on my own
But I can't bring you down this road I'm on
You would be better all alone
The dark is not where you belong

Fake motherfuckers always say that they miss you
Fake motherfuckers always say that they miss you