Celebrate

I've come a long way since high school
Just look at all these scars of mine
You should probably check my vitals
I swear it down, it feels real this time
Okay, okay, okay, okay, I'm sorry, it will pass
Anxiety can be deceiving, lets the demons relax
Relax
Just ride the feeling when you feel it b-b-beating too fast
It's a throwback to the old days
I slip back to my old ways
It's the wrong time to break
It's the right time to breathe
Tryna catch your breath in a hurricane
Like tryna punch a hole in the cellophane
While everybody celebrates
They don't know I'm trapped
Show me how to numb the pain
Oh Lord, oh Lord
So I can finally celebrate
No, it's so bad
No, absolutely not
I'm sorry to let you down, but, uh
I'm, I'm, I'm not gonna come tonight
I'm just
I'm just (yeah)
I've come a long way from nowhere
I've given up on friends of mine
'Cause when I needed friends, they weren't there
A phone call coulda saved my life
Then I fall back, and they call back
Like sore rats, and I saw that
Fake love, I don't fall for that
So, when they call me, I don't call back no more
I don't wanna hurt myself no more, no more, no more
It's a throwback to the old days
I slip back to my old ways
It's the wrong time to break
It's the right time to breathe
Tryna catch your breath in a hurricane
Like tryna punch a hole in the cellophane
While everybody celebrates
They don't know I'm trapped
Show me how to numb the pain
Oh Lord, oh Lord
So I can finally celebrate
'Cause I don't know how to celebrate
No, I don't know, I don't know, oh
Can anybody hear me?
Can anybody hear me?
'Cause I don't know how to celebrate
It's a throwback to the old days (old days)
I slip back to my old ways (old ways)
It's the wrong time to break
It's the right time to-
(Breathe, hurricane) tryna catch your breath in a hurricane
Like tryna punch a hole in the cellophane
While everybody celebrates