middle name

Friends are like tokens I switch out at the arcade
My dad calls me Messy Jessie, my title's here to stay
Scream: I'm the victim, while setting up the game
Send hate your way the second you don't call me bae

Fuck a stranger, born in a different decade
Preach love yourself while I hurt myself today
Won't let them get close, love from far away
I hate that I enjoyed watching my body decay

I chase pain, I chase pain
I chase pain, I chase pain
Born with it like it's my middle name
I chase pain

My whole career was built on impulse
Never learned the meaning of the word repercussion
Parents never cared to give me a time-out
Never learned how to control my mouth

Fuck a stranger, born in a different decade
Preach love yourself while I hurt myself today
Won't let them get close, love from far away
I hate that I enjoyed watching my body decay

I chase pain, I chase pain
I chase pain, I chase pain
Born with it like it's my middle name (my middle name)
(My middle name)

Can't believe I made it to twenty-four
Thank God I stayed away from the bottle
When I walk, I burn bridges
So I run unforgiven
I was never anybody's role model
I was never anybody's role model

I chase pain, I chase pain
I chase pain, I chase pain
Pray for the ones that never got away
I chase pain

Pray for the ones that decide to stay