Bad Motherfucker

I'm feelin' good first time in a long time
A lot of thoughts in my mind, not the scary kind
I used to fear senior year would've been my prime
But I never graduated, yes, I turned out fine
Searching for something that I need to find
'Cause I think about dying all the time
Life's fucking hard, but I'm tryin' all the time
Damn, I'm on the edge, God's calling from the other line
But every time I pick up, I only hear the Devil
I don't give a damn, I don't wanna settle
I just wanna live a good life, die a good man
Like the bad motherfucker I am

I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision
Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it, I'ma be a bad motherfucker till the, till the day I stop kickin'
Stop kickin', y'all

Never had a family, but I had friends
If we're talking real life, I guess, that all depends
I was thinking more racial and moniker
Daydreams of living in Santa Monica
All I ever knew of family was television
'Cause mine was doing hard drugs and locked up in prison
I guess, that's why I never made the same decision
I haven't spoken to my mom in years, I heard she found religion
I'm just playing life like Atari
I was never perfect, I'm fucked up, I'm sorry, I'm human
My childhood was fucked and it's loomin' over me
Every time I think about it, I know I shouldn't be here where I stand
I just wanna live a good life, die a good man
Like the bad motherfucker I am

I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision
Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it, I'ma be a bad motherfucker till the, till the day I stop kickin'