I Hate You

You show up pretty like it's nothing
And then you stab me in the back
I read your lips, I miss the warning
Your scent would pull me from the track
My friends say leave and I don't listen
I act brand new, knock on your door
And though I know you feign innocence
I'm always coming back for more

You don't even have to try
You bark and I will bite it
I tell myself I'm fine
Then you text and I go rabid

I hate the way I want you
I hate the way you know
I hate that I'm still waiting like you're coming through the door
I hate your pretty damage
I hate my stupid heart
If you're done, then do it properly
Don't tear me up in parts

You wield your options like a weapon
Like I should feel lucky you're here
You talk in circles, I confess it
I drink the jealousy like beer
I post a smile, you scroll right past
Then hit me late like you forgot
You love me best when it's convenient
Like I'm just an afterthought

You don't even have to try
I trip on every maybe
I tell myself I'm fine
Then you blink and I go crazy

I hate the way I want you
I hate the way you know
I hate that I'm still waiting like you're coming through the door
I hate your pretty damage
I hate my stupid heart
If you're done, then do it properly
Don't tear me up in parts

Don't call me baby with your fingers crossed
Don't only hold me by the throat
You say you'll stay but I still feel lost
Just let me go
I've had enough!

I hate the way I want you
I hate the way you know
I hate that I'm still shaking when you say you've got to go
I hate your pretty damage
I hate my stupid heart
If you're leaving, don't look back at me
Don't tear me up in parts

I hate it!
I hate it!
I hate it!