Glum

I cut my hair to feel brand new
Still saw the old me in the mirror
Changed my shirt, my point of view
But every color felt much grayer

I tell my friends I'm doing fine
Crack a joke, I play it dumb
But every laugh is out of time
And every night I come undone

I try to paint it gold
But it keeps turning blue
I say I've let you go
But I'm still stuck on you

I'm feeling glum, glum
Like the sky won't open up
Hands in my pockets
Heart in a slump

I'm feeling glum, glum
Yeah, I hate what I've become
Smile for the picture
Break when it's done
I'm feeling glum

Your coffee cup is in my sink
Been three damn weeks, I let it stay
I tell myself I shouldn't think
But I replay you every day

I hear your voice inside my head
Like it's got a rented room
You said some things you never meant
But they still echo in the gloom

I try to paint it gold
But it keeps turning blue
I say I've let you go
But I'm still stuck on you

I'm feeling glum, glum
Like the sky won't open up
Hands in my pockets
Heart in a slump

I'm feeling glum, glum
Yeah, I hate what I've become
Smile for the picture
Break when it's done
I'm feeling glum

Maybe I'm dramatic
Maybe I'm a mess
Maybe I'm just honest
When I'm overthinking us

Maybe it's the healing
Maybe it's the truth
Maybe I just lost myself
The day I lost you

I'm feeling glum, glum
But I'm not giving up
Hands out my pockets
Facing the Sun

I'm feeling glum, glum
But I won't stay this numb
Maybe tomorrow
I'll learn how to run
I'm feeling glum
But I'm not done