Down to the bottom

Scratching at my skin and staring off into the distance
No more resilience, indifference
Is driving me insane
Maybe I should start recounting everything I’ve lost
Light up the fuselage, self sabotage
Burn me at the stake again

And all I feel right now is pain
Now all I want to do
Is shrink back down into the shadow, ooh
Cause all I feel right now is shame
Because I did it to myself again
I did it to myself again
I did it to myself

It’s a long way down to the bottom
And it’s a one way street
It’s a long way down to the gutter from the penthouse suite
It’s a long way down
It’s a long way down
It’s a long way down to the gutter from the penthouse suite

4AM again, woken up by the ticking of my brain
Can’t help but beat myself
Nobody else is better at this game
Trapped beneath the cloud
Stuck fast, the thunder growing louder
Crouched down in the undergrowth
In the freezing cold
Drown me in the floods again

And all I feel right now is pain
Now all I want to do
Is shrink back down into the shadow, ooh
Cause all I feel right now is shame
Because I did it to myself again
I did it to myself again
I did it to myself

It’s a long way down to the bottom
It’s a one way street
It’s a long way down to the gutter from the penthouse suite
It’s a long way down
It’s a long way down
It’s a long way down to the gutter from the penthouse suite

I-I-I can’t help myself
I-I-I don’t want to fall
No further, further, further
No further, further, further
I-I-I can’t help myself
I-I-I don’t want to fall
No further, further, further
How much further must I fall

Cause it’s a long way down to the bottom
And it’s a one way street
It’s a long way down to the gutter from the penthouse suite
It’s a long way do-o-own
It’s a long way down to the gutter from the penthouse suite