In Between the Leaving

I had no control over what I felt
Still don’t, I'm fighting with myself
And I keep losing, ‘cause this fight
You already won without a doubt

Each time someone gets too close to you
Or lays a hand where I once knew
All my instincts start to scream
Louder than I can ever mute

You shouldn’t have this hold on me
But you do, and I can’t break free

I wanna give in to what I feel
But I need to run from you
And let you run from me
'Cause we won't end well like this

In between the leaving, I still feel you near
I try to let go, but you won’t disappear
Every time I fight it, I just draw you near
You’re still here, you’re still here

You’ve stolen every thought I own
No scent compares to yours alone
I search for you unconsciously
In every smile, every glance, in every beat of me

I feel so numb when you're around
And without you, I break down
You're in my thoughts, in every frame I paint
Everything I do is you, you're flowing through my veins

In between the leaving, I still feel you near
I try to let go, but you won’t disappear
Every time I fight it, I just draw you near
You’re still here, you’re still here

And still, I know I have to let you go
In between the leaving, it's hard to say goodbye
'Cause every part of me still belongs to you
In between the leaving