if I'll Ever Win

Avoidin' all the mirrors
Till she wakes up a little thinner
Replayin' conversations in her head that speak too loud
And she talks a little quiet
Thinks it's better to be silent
She's learned to bite her tongue
Because it hurts too much to let it out

Ooh, she fights a war against herself, against herself
Ooh, no one ever comes to help

And I don't know, don't know where to hide
From someone I don't recognize
She hates my body, the body that she's trapped inside
She keeps me up at night
And I don't know if it ever ends
It slows down, then it starts again
She hates my body, the body that we're living in
I don't know if I'll ever win

I think I've become a bully
Convinced myself nobody wants me
I'm nothin' but a burden
Who's still learnin' how to cope with life
But that girl in my mind tells me I'm nothin'
Go down another size, that I'm not worth lovin'
So don't even try, 'cause I could never do it right

And I don't know, don't know where to hide
From someone I don't recognize
She hates my body
The body that she's trapped inside
She keeps me up at night
And I don't know if it ever ends
It slows down, then it starts again
She hates my body, the body that we're living in
I don't know if I'll ever win

Because the more I try, the more it hurts (ooh)
And givin' up just makes it worse

And I don't know, don't know where to hide
From someone I don't recognize
She hates my body
The body that she's trapped inside
She keeps me up at night
And I don't know if it ever ends
It slows down, then it starts again
She hates my body, the body that we're living in
I don't know if I'll ever win