is suicide too much?

She's in a cab, somewhere far away
I'm in my room, day-drinking on a Tuesday
It's such a drag
And she don't wanna pick me up
So, what?

But it all goes downhill from here
I got a pill in my pocket, watch it disappear
I got too much on my mind
And she don't wanna pick me up
So, what?
(What? What? What?)

I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I'll be outside, up on a ledge
Know I'm dying
On the inside I'll be fine
Is suicide too much? My love

I take it all to the face
Catch the bus back home
I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones
And a spike on my boot
I can't wait too long for you, my love

My body keeps shakin
And you know I can't take it, baby
I don’t wanna do this alone
You said that you'd be back before eleven
Now it's twelve-thirty-seven
And you know that I’ve gotta get going home

I know I don't lose my cool around you
But I can't take lying, baby, that's all that you do
You know I don't lose my cool around you
But I can't take lying, baby
That's all that you do
(Do, do, do)

I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I'll be outside, up on a ledge
Know I'm dying
On the inside I'll be fine
Is suicide too much? My love

I take it all to the face
Catch the bus back home
I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones
And a spike on my boot
I can't wait too long for you, my love

I'm lying on a cold tile floor
My head feels like it's gonna explode
You need me but I need you more
I'm lying on a cold tile floor
My head feels like it's gonna explode
You need me but I need you more

I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying
I’ll be outside, up on a ledge
Know I'm dying
On the inside I'll be fine
Is suicide too much? My love

I take it all to the face
Catch the bus back home
I got ripped shoelaces and broken bones
And a spike on my boot
I can't wait too long for you, my love