"It Don't Matter"

Sittin' in traffic, another day of feelin' nothin'
Trying to find somethin', I guess it's back to huffin'
Paint and model glue, oh how I die when I look
At you smilin', lovin' life and all I know is blue
Rainy days and cold stares, broken love affairs
Everything's beautiful as long as I ain't there
I guess I wasn't meant to crack a smile, who cares
I think I'll go to sleep for a while

I'm barely livin' in my skin, depression's my only friend
And I don't know where I am headin', tryin' to forget where I'vebeen
And I'm so sick of lyin', God please show me that silver linin'
'Cause I've heard tale, and I'm not well, my head's full of helland this world's a jail, but

And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
'Cause everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear

And as the pain begins to displace, had it to ear level with thisplace
You see it on my face a state of suspended grace
Gradually I erase and find comfort in the sickest womb
I might be present but not in the room
To who it may consume, melting ensembles bleeding chellos
Running through bordello's drama, like othello hidin' out fromponcharello
Dead off in the median, fallin' apart like usual, handin' outflyers to my funeral

So they say life's a play and that all the world's a stage
And for another part I pray, the show ends the same wayeveryday
And my heart carries the pain, of a brain I can't explain
Am I insane, am I insane

And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
It doesn't really matter now does it

Yeah, everything's so hard to bear
Everything here's hard to bear
And everything here's hard to bear
And everything here's hard to bear