I Should Just Go To Bed

Guess you're really gone
I've been so fixated
On everything I lost
In just one conversation
Where you said life was long
But mine isn't worth wastin'
Your mind isn't wrong, doesn't mean I'm not
Wishin' I could change it

It's always 10 PM, layin' in my head
Turnin' all my thoughts to potential texts
That's the way I get after 2 AM and it's 2 AM

So how you doin'?
You seem fine and I've been goin' through it
Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined
'Cause somehow you still love me in my head
I hate that I imagine
When you get this message, your reaction
It's late again, wеll, that's what always happens
I know I'd regret еverything I'd send
I should just go to bed

Ooh
I should just go to bed
Ooh

I don't wanna care (Mm)
So I'm optimistic (Mm)
Am I not self-aware (Mm)
For hopin' that you'll miss this? (Mm)
And you say there's a future us (Mm)
But how can I be certain of what will become? (Mm)
With all your words and actions never syncin' up (Mm)
It's hard to know it's me you're really thinkin' of

'Cause when it's 10 PM, layin' in my head
I can hear your voice, words you never said
That's the way I get after 2 AM, here I go again

So how you doin'?
You seem fine and I've been goin' through it
Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined
'Cause somehow you still love me in my head
I hate that I imagine
When you get this message, your reaction
It's late again, well, that's what always happens
I know I'd regret everything I'd send
I should just go to bed

Ooh (I should just go, I should just go, I should just go)
I should just go to bed
Ooh (I should just go, I should just go, I should just go)
I should just go to bed

So why's it hard to be the bigger person? I'm just hurtin'
I keep tryna justify the way you left and it's not working
Don't deserve it
Swear to God you're hurting me on purpose
And maybe it's my fault 'cause, at your worst, I see the best in you
Lettin' you go piece by piece until there's nothin' left to lose
It's workin'
But sometimes I just wanna say in person

How you doin'?
You seem fine and I've been goin' through it
Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined
Really thought we'd make it in the end
I should just go to bed