Not Everyone Heals As Fast As You

five months on flawless highs,
your halo kept me warm at night.
I found your footsteps outlined in the snow.
and i know the shirt you kept
is buried deep beneath your mattress.
just pretend i'm a bird outside your window.
I'll be another ghost
who floats around and haunts your room,
I'll just wait for you to fall asleep.
Will you dream of winter nights?
i try to relate our darting eyes
but I could never be everything you wanted.

i swallowed a shooting star
and delivered you my favorite heart (and now all i've got is)
a summer spent forgetting wedding rings.
your eyes are like an ocean...
i was living off our pretty moments. (thinking how lucky i was, thinking...)
"i know a thousand guys who would kill to be me."

five months of rain and steam,
sometimes we'd just say anything.
for someone so hot you get so cold.
i never meant to be so boring
but holding you was everything
i tried so hard to keep you close.
does he kiss your cheeks like me?
or keep quiet when you fall asleep
and smile knowing he makes you feel safe?
i know he makes you laugh and twist
but remember i did it best
and meant it the most.

someone will tell me where you've been.
won't you just tell me?