Enshrouded

All my life I have tried so hard, to fix the problems I caused over and over again
But all I did only made things worse, until no one would believe me

For most I know, I'm just a passing thought
They never listen or think I've only got myself to blame
And they're probably right, why should they care?
For if they ask, they'll soon regret it

And all of those whom I thought were friends
They think they know me, but they have no clue about what's going on
And I don't know if I even want them to
I'm best left to my own sorrow

So I try and fake a smile, saying all is well and they can go on living their lives without me
They don't need misery, but somehow you see right through me

From you I just can't seem to hide
Even if I close my eyes
Your love just shines too bright on me
I have hurt you the most, so why haven't you turned your back on me?

If I pretend that you're not here
I can drown away my fear
And let myself believe the lie I keep telling myself
That there's nothing left in me worth dying for

Why didn't you leave me, because I have hurt you so?
I want you to hold me and your love to swallow me whole and never let go