September Gave Us Awkwardness, October Gave Me Not

Thousand twinkling lights in a september night sky
Makes a heart filled with void
Remembers the aching of a loss, five years ago.

And there you stood,
Just like a picture it seemed to me.
And there you stood,
The wind had gripped your pail hair and also caught my heart.
And everything i didn't say echoes forever.
You never saw how much you hurt me i guess.

But then again,
Thousand twinkling lights in an october night sky
Makes my heart slowly wander
And stumbles across the aching of a loss, two years ago.
And the words as follow:
"i can't help that i still miss those nights we spent speaking in silence"

I've been waiting so long for a moment,
When i don't feel this way.
I've been waiting for a moment,
When i no longer feel trapped inside this hollow body,
When i'm at ease.

All this years i've told myself to wait fot it.
Maybe i feel better if i just wait for it.
Whenever you're around
I shut my eyes and wait for it.
I hope and wait,
I just wait for it.

But what if the moment never comes?
Will i be left with all my thoughts?
What if i never can let go?
Will i ever get over you?
Will i ever?