What Was I Thinking

Why do we torture ourselves?
This will never work i can already tell.
We're not the same, it's over.

What exactly would you like me to do?
Whitewash my words to hide the truth,
Make them easier to swallow,
It's not gonna happen.
As entertaining as this has been,
Stuck in romantic destruction
It's all a mistake and it's all i can take.

What was i thinking?
Maybe i wasn't at all
Where were we headed,
Before we dropped the ball?

You're at the bar having a ball.
I'm staring at my fuckin' hotel wall,
Driven half insane with no diversions.
How much will i take before i break?
I've taken the liberty in deciding your fate.
Now the damage is done
In a time of great tribulation.
I forgot my shovel at your grave
I'll need it back in case anyone else misbehaves.
A higher power told me we can't be saved.

What was i thinking?
Maybe i wasn't at all.
Where were we headed,
Before we dropped the ball?
What were you doing
Inside the bathroom stall?
What was i thinking?
Maybe i wasn't at all.

Didn't i say, didn't i say, didn't i say i'd call?
Didn't i say, didn't i say, didn't i say i'd call?
I've been climbing up, i've been climbing up,
I've been climbing the walls.
I've been climbing up, i've been climbing up,
I've been climbing the walls.