devil's/speak (feat. Fox Lake)

I wonder if you meant it
Any of the times you said it
Or did you just regret it
Every second, every minute

The sad part is
I could never hate you
After everything
I still forgave you

It doesn't make sense
Why I'm still upset
Still hanging onto everything
You ever said

Nights I spent wondering
Why wasn't I enough?
You left me lying on the floor
With my ribs crushed

I wonder if you meant it
Any of the times you said it
Or did you just regret it
Every second, every minute

Did you mean it?
When you said it
Just regret it
Every minute

Even love is ruthless
And these wounds are proof
That we survive
But at the cost of being used

Why do I always let
The wrong ones in?
To give them the satisfaction
Of having them win

Well this time
I won't bury the hatchet
I want my revenge

I wonder if you meant it
Any of the times you said it
Or did you just regret it
Every second, every minute

I never had it that good before
Felt so alive
Till I bled out on the floor

The one that stood out
From the rest
Ended up as being buckshot
Through my chest

Fucked me up
Like an all out blitz
Had to get a fix
Gotta from the 6
Real shit
No tricks
Bad luck
Bad bitch
Fuck you
Feel this

What's it worth
To feel your pain
When it soon discovers rage
And we've grown to resent each other
Push ourselves away

Pushing down the pain
Putting faith in you
Was my only crime

Your words
Are poison dripping off the vine
I cut out every memory
Till you're fucking dead to me

I still hope you fucking hurt
Just like I did
You never deserved
Any ounce of my kindness

You know that I heard
You fucking survived it
Still hoping you're breaking
Under your vices

You'll never hurt
In the ways that I did
I regret all the times
That I fucking forgave you

Used to abuse
So I'm easy to lie to
Still wondering
Why did I love you
When I couldn't even trust you?