PITY PARTY

She built a wall around her body
Can’t tell wall from skin
Drew a smile on the outside
Let nobody in
They can’t tell it’s paper thin

And her feelings catch each other
They climb her brick by brick
Her mind distorts a mirror
Like a puppet on a string
They’re tugging at her tear ducts

So she throws herself a pity party
(Here comes the jealousy, hate and the dread)
And never give herself a sorry
As she says

Give me a reason not to hide
'Cause I can’t tear down the wall from the inside
I tried to leave it all behind
But what if someday I look back
And see how there’s just me where the wall used to be

So how many careless comments
Does it take to build a wall?
You’re too much and not enough
How will you ever find a love?
It’s a shitty paradox

'Cause she’ll only find herself
If she belongs to someone else
He tells her all she needs to hear
And builds her walls into a cell
She could never say farewell

So she throws herself a pity party
(Here comes the jealousy, hate and the dread)
And never give herself a sorry
As she says

Give me a reason not to hide
'Cause I can’t tear down the wall from the inside
I tried to leave it all behind
But what if someday I look back
And see how there’s just me where the wall used to be

So Throw yourself a pity party
(Here comes the jealousy, hate and the dread)
You’ll never give yourself a sorry
And again
So throw yourself a pity party
Here come all the guests and no
You’ll never give yourself a sorry
As you say

Now everybody’s staring, the ceiling’s falling down
The walls are getting closer and colder and harder and further away
How is it even possible?
It’s getting tight, no oxygen