Like Locusts

I lay in filth
My thoughts decay

I wish i could
Turn off my mind

Flip of a switch
Eternal
All goes black

No more angst
No more sadness
No more confusion
No more anger
No more pain
No more love
Only black
Only peace
How long must i go
Before i realize
That this is not for me
That i'm slowly
Dying, rotting
From the inside
Lying in the dark
Muffled sounds
Sound so distant
In this silence
Explode in my ears
They invade me
They envelope me
Like locusts
Suffocating me

The current
Too strong
Growing tired and weary
Maelstrom
Its embrace
Is pulling me under

We succumb
To its violence
Never knowing when that time will come
I've fought it
Far too long
Now it's time
To let myself go

Now it's time
Achieving peace
Now it's time
Let go
Of the guilt
Now it's time
Stop my beating heart