Pregnant Pause

In a moment of doubt I was confronted with the truth
I was petrified and certain I was being used
And I was counting off ambitions and kill'em one by one
Like Jesus on the cross I was sticking to my guns
And I was looking for a friend to try and help me out
But the silence was deadly 'cause no one was around
And I was thinking, I was choking like I thought I never could
Scratching at the itch and it was feeling so good…

In a pregnant pause
In a pregnant pause

I had a moment to escape I didn't know what to do
So I unlocked a window and I shouted like a fool
And I was yellin' for my mama, I was yellin' for my dad
I was looking for friendship in friends I never had
And I was looking for someone to try and help me down
But they all ran away when the money ran out
I was looking, I was starring at my moment of truth
On top of the mountain, sucking in the view…

In a pregnant pause
In a pregnant pause

And it felt like - what could of been minutes
And it felt like - what could of been years
And it felt like - my whole world was spinning
It felt like nothing was clear
And it felt like - I was slipping under
And it felt like - I was falling down
And it felt like - the tallest mountain
It felt like the loudest sound!

I was looking for a friend I was looking for a face
I was looking for someone to put me in my place
And I was spitting, I was choking, I was sucking it down
I wish I didn't know then, what I know right now…

In a pregnant pause
In a pregnant pause

What coulda been minutes
What coulda been years
My whole world was spinning
It felt like nothing was clear!