NUMB

I don’t feel fear anymore
Nothing feels safe
I don’t feel anything
I used to wake up scared every day
My head never slows down

Now the fear is gone, faded away
And I don’t feel bad, I'm just empty now

I keep waiting for the panic again
Waiting for my chest to explode
But nothing came back after that

Everything just went quiet and cold
I thought numb was saving me somehow
But I don’t feel anything now

I'm sorry

I don’t feel love
I don’t feel pain
I don’t feel joy
I don’t feel shame
I don’t feel fear
I don’t feel strong

I don’t feel anything
Something is wrong

I feel like I probably have no chains left
Like an empty child just walking around

This place doesn’t feel like home
And it’s all I know

I breathe
I move
Nothing feels real

I miss loving someone, even if it hurts
I miss trusting people, even when they lie

I know they think I know the truth
But I must believe in me

One more time
Sometimes I want to restart my life
Erase my mistakes, not fix them twice

I want a clean start, not fixing the past
I'm tired of repairing what is already crashed

Where are the stars when the clouds turn black?
Where is my voice when I'm following my head?

I don’t feel love
I don’t feel pain
I don’t feel human
I don’t feel the same

I don’t feel fear
I don’t feel safe
I don’t feel present
I just exist

I thought numb would save me somehow
But I don’t feel anything now

I'm still waiting for you
I'm still waiting for you

I don’t feel fear

Where is the darkness
When I'm tired of the light?

Where is the light
When the darkness consumes me alive?