Save Me From Myself

God
They won't stop
They're loud again
I'm scared of what they want from me

God, help me!

These voices tell me I'm not worth a thing
They push and push until I can't fucking think
I try to breathe but everything feels wrong
I've been holding on to nothing for too long

They say I break the people that I love
They say I ruin everything I touch
They say I'll never change I'll never heal
They get so loud I can't control what I feel

I'm scared they'll make me hurt myself again
I'm scared I'll lose whatever strength I have left
I'm scared of nights where I just shut down
I'm scared of me when no one is around

(Save me)

I'm falling faster than I want to admit
These thoughts hit harder than they fucking should hit
I try to fight but I can't slow them down
They scream my name every time I'm on the ground

Save me!

The pills don't help they only mute the noise
But when they fade I lose what's left of my voice
I sit alone and shake until I crack
I feel like I can never get myself back

I hurt the ones who try to stay with me
I push them off before they even see
I hate myself for everything I've done
I'm tired of feeling like I'm always the wrong one

(Save me)

I'm scared of what they make me do
Save me I can't get through
They tell me I'm nothing
They tell me I'm broken
They tell me I'll never be fucking okay
(God don't let me end this way)

Save me from myself
I'm losing air I'm losing what I felt
If someone hears the shaking in my breath
Don't let me fade don't let me fear what's next

God I'm still here
But I'm not okay
Please don't let me disappear