An Incident With a Ball Point Pen

Lying here on the couch viewing the blankness
I’m trying to watch TV
But I don’t know what I’m watching
It’s so lonely here
Me myself & I reside in the night
I want to sleep but it just won’t come it won’t come
I’m so tired of hurting and being alone
I keep thinking about the pills in the cabinet but I’m scared
My head hurts so much from crying but if I take anything for it I’m scared
I won’t stop and I would want to stop
Want to stop

I don’t have any choice in the matter
To make everything
I can’t make it right by living
I’m so scared I want out but oh I don’t know
I’m so cold
Please do something
I can’t stand this
Empty feeling that I’m having
My head is horrible
Stop the pounding hurts so much
Stop

I have no control over
Anything in my life. I’m breaking into pieces. Somebody do something