parting gift

I lie awake wondering
Will I kill myself or someone else
Before this night comes to an end?

Look me in the eyes

Each word you spit is treason
Say it one more time (one more time)
Make me believe it

Another deception to deny

You wielded hope as a weapon
I welcomed the deepest of mutilations with love
But this love only ever brought me the gift
Of terror filled nights

Don't close your eyes
I want you to watch

It's my turn to lacerate

Let me paint you a picture
Make it last