Lost Within

Cold the earth below my feet,
My heart´s already turned to dust!
Inside ? there is just emptyness
I´m looking at me with disgust!

All the good things that i had
Are memories inside my mind
Makin me so numb and sad
´cause all that they inflict...

...is pain!!
Nothing hurts us more than seeing chances that we never took
Desperation makes us weak and stunnes our eyes for a new look!
On some day i keep on wondering, why i feel so lost within
Looking back i'm filled with anger, cursing all that could have been

I still wonder why i´m walking ?
Everyday i walk straight on.
Running, running, sometimes talking
But the sense of life is gone.

Has there ever been a sense?
If there was, i have forgotten.
Have to live in present tense,
Because all my dreams are rotten.

Look at yourself: where did you get?
With sole disillusion inside of your head,
Looking for someone, someone to blame
So that you don´t have to face your own shame!

Where is this disillusion coming from?
What do you fear??!!
There had been better days,
Of harmony, so sorrowless,
But i missed these golden ways,
Instead i got this emptyness...
Which makes me numb and ask myself:
Where am i now? lost within!
All of my dreams? lost within!
What about hope? lost within!
Almost darkness inside of my bleeding self!

Where am i now? lost within!
All of my dreams? lost within!
What about hope? lost within!
And the small beam of light is just fading away...
Lost... within!