20 again

It's funny when they ask me
What I do on Friday nights
I always get the same reaction
And I don't blame them at all

I graduated from high school
Almost three years ago

And nothing has changed since then
Except that I'm getting older

I'm scared I won't make it to 30
But it's even scarier
That I won't be 20 again

It's harder when I forget
What I'm chasing
Can we go back in time
When nothing really mattered?
When only being a child was fine

I'm addicted to drama
I fill the void with TV shows
Making up fake scenarios
And daydreaming are my favorite sports

I'm scared I'll die before
I give my first kiss
But it's even scarier

That I won't be 20 again

I'm scared I'll die before
I make my parents proud of me
But it's even scarier

That I won't be 20 again

It feels like in every song (i'll be honest)
I say the same things
But every day of my life (i'm worried)
Looks the same to me
I spend my life (i'll run out of time)
Comparing mine with others
(And you'll only say I told you so)
I'm well aware I'm the problem here

But I'm scared
I won't make it to 30
But it's even scarier
That I won't be 20 again