How To Live

Did I fog the lens with crying eyes?
Did I get undressed to drop the disguise?
Trade common sin for common sense
A life undone in heaps of regret
Baby bird, my cult of one
You're getting thin, my prodigal son
So I count my stones before they're laid
Like the architects of ancient Pompeii

I know too much it's freaking me out
But there's gold under the rust
Figuring out just how to live
I'm so afraid you're finding me out
But there's something in the rough
Figuring out just how to live

I made a little money, but it's never enough
She'll tell me that she want me but it still ain't enough
My neighbors gettin' naughty and it's keeping me up
There's no God above me and it's fuckin' me up
She came into the lobby, eyes lookin' for love
She don't know that I've had another honey for months
And I'm a man with a thimble fighting a flood
Still figuring out how to live

Monday comes, I'm ashamed
From throwing crumbs at the funeral parade
I can't sleep, I'm losing face
I'm so much older than my age
I can't sleep, waste my days
I'm so much older than I can take, oh

I know too much it's freaking me out
But there's gold under the rust
Figuring out just how to live
I'm so afraid you're finding me out
But there's something in the rough
Figuring out just how to live

I made a little money, but it's never enough
She'll tell me that she want me but it still ain't enough
My neighbors gettin' naughty and it's keeping me up
There's no God above me and it's fuckin' me up
She came into the lobby, eyes lookin' for love
She don't know that I've had another honey for months
And I'm a man with a thimble fighting a flood
Still figuring out how to live

And I always play the victim
Though I'll tell myself I don't
Mister casual and flippant
He's ashamed to be alone
And I'm no stranger to the distance
But I'm missing her bad
And I'm up at night and wishing
It could be simple as that

I know too much it's freaking me out
But there's gold under the rust
Figuring out just how to live
I'm so afraid you're finding me out
But there's something in the rough
Figuring out just how to live