Embers Reflection

It took me a long time to be able to look at you
Without this sour regret mixed with shame and anger
And when finally I could do so and be turned loose
I saw something more in your deep blue eyes

We were over
Everything was perfectly solved
Our memory was turning sweet
The ripples had faded on the sea between us
Once drowning, now rising, but all was ruined for lust
For lust!

The night when our lips found their way back
I was rather looking for revenge than anything
A closure to an old act

But embers from the past lighted up
Blinding what had broken us
We thought we could be one again

Leave me, forget me, forgive me
Forsake this old misery – forsake this old misery!
Hate me, don’t you see, we’re not real
Bury your pain next to me – bury your pain next to me!

When I realized I couldn’t be this ghost
I had to break your heart one more time
I had found the one, but you were not this half - anymore

I’m not able to save you
I know that I leave you undone
I’m sorry for what I put you through
But this was only embers reflection

We failed to keep the loved one safe
We failed!

Leave me, forget me, forgive me
Forsake this old misery – forsake this old misery!
Hate me, don’t you see, we’re not real
Bury your pain next to me – bury your pain next to me!

We could have been, darling
On a different sea
In another blind alley
Another reality

Our circle is complete
We can forsake our guilt
Come back to what we’d built
And leave it at a memory