This is my letter to you

We started following a certain description
We started simple and fair once again
Before there wasn't any need for an answer
Things were much different then

But, now you question who I am
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide
So here it goes
This is my letter

Hope you're alright, it's been rough for me
Thinking all night about the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more
You might've let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern
It seems an issue, all day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn?

Engulf myself into a permanent mystery
No one day just as the next (not for me)
It's so confusing when I look at my history
I just can't handle that yet
No

But now you question who I am
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide
So here it goes
This is my letter

Hope you're alright, it's been rough for me
Thinking all night about the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more
You might've let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern
It seems an issue, all day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn?

One more friendship ends
And then for a while
I can breathe again

Hope you're alright, it's been rough for me
Thinking all night about the places I'd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more
You might've let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern
It seems an issue, all day at every turn
What's the next step, the latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn?