Alone with the cross

Within the halls of the monastery
I walk the corridors in silence
A vow of abstinence and piety I made
To attain peace and holy guidance

All earthly pleasures I’ve forsworn
But when I'm desperate and forlorn

I take the crucifix down from my chamber wall
Longing to feel the Lord inside of me
The tempting body of Christ puts me at a loss
My gut it hurts whenever I am
Alone with the cross

His wooden symbol bringing warmth and light
To where the Sun is never shining
Makes me tremble with unholy ecstasy
Oh, God, thy mercy I confide in

For this I can never atone
Heavenly father please condone

I take the crucifix down from my chamber wall
Longing to feel the Lord inside of me
The tempting body of Christ puts me at a loss
My gut it hurts whenever I am
Alone with the cross

Defiled and broken, His image in my hands
Damned is my godforsaken soul
My oath no longer worth a toss
I weep in shame and bitter loss
Alone with my cross